From Heartbreak, Mourning, Loss. Volume One, Detach or Die
I have learned to enjoy my own company
I had difficulty being alone, I didn’t like my own company, I feared rejection, I wouldn’t do the things I should have been doing to become financially, emotionally, professionally independent. I wasted my talents on silly activities, I obsessed about the wrong things, I lacked ambition, I wouldn’t control my expenses, I created unecessary drama. I didn’t take responsibility for my needs, my failures. I was as dependent as a teenager who wants to be free from mom and dad but without having to earn a living. I used every method of control to avoid the partner leaving me, which never worked. I was an expert at inducing guilt “how terrible you are for not taking care of poor little me.”
The one thing that my repeated heartbreak taught me was this: it is never too late to grow-up. I did.
